What's up

Sorry for not reporting in for a while. I needed some time for quiet reflection. I lost the plot on the weekend. Fell head on onto my old bingeing habits. It was messy. Sunday afternoon I felt as though I was coming out of a food induced fog, and had to survey the damage...

Two days of out of control eating resulted in a 2 kg gain for the week. it could have been worse.

So this week I am back on track. I am taking a few days off of counting cals and am just eating healthy and exercising. Tryin.g to get my head back in the game.

I have a 4 day weekend starting tomorrow. I will need to count to make it through that. But I will get there. I figure as long as I am taking 2 steps forward for every 1 step back then I am making progress.

An Interesting Thing Happened...

About a week ago I gave myself permission to eat whatever the hell I want, whenever I want. No limits. Nothing out of bounds. Nothing is banned. Pizza, ice cream, chocolate, Maccas breakfast - It is all freely available to me whenever I want it. The first thing this did, was to stop me craving it. As soon as I knew that if I really REALLY wanted something I would allow myself to have it and not beat myself up over it, it lost some of its appeal (not ALL of its appeal mind you) LOL

Yesterday was one of those days. I was feeling sick, tired, achey, stressed, pre-menstrual, and damn it, I wanted to eat crap. 

So I did...  I ate a fair bit (although not as much as I would have done in the past)

And it tasted goooood. :)

I ate way too much and it is highly unlikely I will lose any weight this week, and I don't care. It made me feel good. 

Yes, I know, we are not meant to use food for our emotions, but the fact is, I do. I always have. And the sooner I accept that, the sooner I can deal and move on. To me, food = comfort and happiness. I can not change that. I have tried for nearly 40 years. It is never going to change. So I accept it.

I ate what I wanted, and I enjoyed it. No guilt or recriminations. My biggest concern was that once I started stuffing my face I would never want to stop again.

Then an interesting thing happened. This morning I have no desire for any crappy food whatsoever. None. I want to eat healthy. I drove past Maccas on the way to work (which usually elicits a longing look, a sigh, and a deep craving) and I turned my nose up. The thought of it was a turn off. I actually wanted to eat my oats. I have a healthy lunch with me and I am looking forward to eating it. The binge thoughts that have been plaguing me, pretty much since the beginning of the year, are gone. I am looking forward to eating well and feeling well as a result. 

First Monthly Goal Achieved

So this week I upped my walks from 30 minutes to 40 minutes. I am still not fast, but I felt ready to go for longer. Out I headed. At the 21 minute mark (I walk faster on the way back so always head out for 1 minute more than the half way point) I had gone a lot further than I expected. But I turned around and got home in 20 minutes. Out of curiosity I used mapmyride.com to see how far I went.

3.28kms!

Yay! I am really happy with that distance. And that is January walking goal achieved. I am now aiming for 4kms by the end of Feb.

Weigh In

I had an awesome week last week, followed by a terrible terrible weekend. However, I managed to maintain a 1.5kg loss for the week, which was really not deserved, so I am thankful for it.

I started at the gym, and was lucky enough to have 2 gym buddies join me on my first session. It definitely made it more enjoyable, plus I had to go as there were 2 people waiting for me. My arms were sore for a couple of days, but I feel good now. I have an incredibly busy week this week, but am going to aim to get back there tomorrow night.

My fitness plans for the week are:
3 x 40 min walks
2 x 30 min rides
2 x weight sessions
1 x any extra exercise I choose

Partway through Week 2

And all going well. Ish. :)

I put my back out on Monday night. I went for a walk after work, and it turns out all the footpaths on the streets around where I work are slightly sloped down towards the road. Just enough to be painful after 10 minutes or so. I woke up Tuesday morning with my back in spasms. It has settled down somewhat now, although I am going to try and get in to see my chiropractor tonight as it is still out. I have done a couple of slow walks, but nothing too strenuous since then.

Food has been good, apart from Tuesday night. Movie Popcorn. I will say no more...

I had my induction at the gym last night. Because my back is out I couldn't really do anything, but she gave me an upper body weight program and showed me how to use all the equipment. If my back is more settled by tomorrow night I will try and get there and work my way through it. It turns out a few of my friends are members of the same gym, so hopefully we can buddy up occasionally which will make it more fun.

One Week In....

And going well. Last week I ended up with 6 really good days, and one day that I will consider a "Learning Curve". Sunday. My plans for the day were housework and study. Husband was at work most of the day. So it was just me. And a fridge full of food.... It didn't end well... The day ended in a case of insomnia (I think I have had about 3 hours of sleep which included the 1 hour sleep in I got since I did not get up and walk this morning) and my night time insomnia activities of fridge raiding reared their ugly head.

So I need to sit down and think about ways to handle study days and insomnia.

Despite waking up still feeling full and sick from yesterday, I got on the scales. 163.9 which is a loss of 2.4 kgs. I have to be happy with that after yesterday! I can't help but think what they would have said if I wasn't still digesting, but hey, any loss is a good loss and I am on track for my 8 kilo loss for this month.

So tonight I have to go for a walk to make up for this morning. Then I will try and get an early night and catch up on some much needed sleep.

I joined the Gym

Yep, I did it. I actually joined a gym. My membership starts on Wednesday and I have my induction that night. I am going to ask for an upper body weights plan. My legs are pretty strong. My plan will be to get there for 2 weight sessions a week, I will have to work that into my exercise plan somehow. I will also utitlise the gym for cardio, be it the machines or Group Fitness when I get fitter. I can use any of their centres so may even join up with my OFB Buddy occasionally for a workout. She is a member of the same chain of gyms.

Yesterday ended well again, although I took the slack option for dinner and got Subway. I ate 1939 cals which is great.

I am having a rest day today and boy do I need it. My legs are SO tired and achey. My feet are swollen. And I generally feel bloated and blech. But I will come good tomorrow and by Monday will be ready for the new week of exercise.

My exercise plan for the new week is
5 x 30 min walks
2 x 20 min rides (may be on the exercise bike at the gym)
1 x weight session

Sunday will be my rest day and I think I am going to need it. LOL